First
off, I am beyond spoiled! Thank you, thank you to my grandparents and my family
for sending my companion and I the best Valentines Day packages EVER!! We feel
so pampered! It really made our week! We are so blessed. Thank you, thank you!!
Where
to begin?? This week has been packed so full this good stuff! We had District
Conference this week, which was so amazing! And we went as a whole District to
the Sandhills on p-day. SO MUCH FUN!! I’ll send pictures. And we had exchanges
this week! On Saturday we get to go to the temple! So many good things are
happening!!!
OK
WOW! We have seen so many miracles! I know, I know, I say it every week,
but this week I’m SERIOUS. I am honestly not the same girl that I was last
week. We had some really amazing experiences as we labored in the Lord’s
vineyard this week. I know with every fiber of my being that I am a daughter of
God, and that He knows me personally and loves me. I knew it before, but now I
really FEEL it. I feel it in everything that I do.
Every
day this past week has been so refining for my companion and I. We have
received witness after witness that both her and I are supposed to be
companions right at this very time, and that we are supposed to be here in
Monahans. This week single handedly has been the biggest experience of growth
up to this point in my mission. Every day there was a battle to overcome, and
every day we saw the blessings as we pushed through them. I have been able to
truly recognize the Spirit in every situation and how to follow it. I truly
know that all this work is about is charity, the Spirit and Jesus Christ.
That’s it.
One
experience I will share a little bit about - I have been struggling a lot
lately with trying to be perfect all the time, and then feeling frustrated when
I come up short. My perfectionism, and always trying to be strong, really comes
out as I try to labor with all my might, but then get upset when I make a
mistake. So that was really weighing on me quite a bit, and I was praying and
trying really hard to overcome that. Then we were morning finding on the street
and came across this guy and started talking to him. We talked to him for about a half hour, and
he told us he was a Jew and all about his religion and background, and that
kinda stuff. Then we were about to leave after talking to him, and he stops us
and says "I feel like God has something that he wants me to tell
you." And Sister Krause and I were like “uuuh okay here we go”. He turned and he looked at me, and his
countenance had changed. And he said to me "oooh man, you are one tough
girl. You are a tough cookie to crack. Why are you fighting against the Lord in
him trying to smooth your imperfections? You have to recognize them first,
before he can buff them out. You are as a rock right now, and you need to
become as clay so the Lord can continue molding you. You are trying to be
perfect, but you are going to fail. You need to say oops and move on and get
back to work. Don't be discouraged, the Lord is in all of it." We both
felt the Spirit so strong, and then he turned and said very detailed specific
things to Sister Krause about her life that she had been struggling with as
well. Sister Krause and I had been
talking to each other about those 2 specific problems that each of us had just
that morning. It was really amazing. The Lord works through people to help us
in our problems in life. For the sake of sacredness, and the fact that I cant
even put the rest in words, I will leave it at that. The Lord knows his
children’s hearts.
I am a
changed person. I could not ever express enough how much my mission means to
me. I don't know where I would be without it. It has changed the way that I see
everything, and how I will be for the rest of my life. I know now that the
hardest and most important thing we can do in this life is to give our will to
God. But when we do, that is when our life will go exactly in accordance with
the way the Lord wants it to go, and that will always be towards our greatest
happiness.
Love,
Hermana
Bleyl
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